As my time home with the girls has come to an end and I return to work I am saddened by our days together being more stressful. However, I am thankful that we will still be together (in a way) through the day. I couldn't be luckier to have my girls with me in the same school with amazing teachers. But, it is with mixed feelings and a heavy heart that I say goodbye to the life I've had for the past 5 years. It is a life I wanted and talked about at length before accepting my husband's hand in marriage. It is a life I dreamed about but did not know how it would be. It is a life that I worked and still work very hard to maintain. It is a life blessed with children who are more than beautiful to me because I know their innocent hearts and hear their tender voices, hear their silly conversations, and join in their contagious giggles.
I am at peace with my choice to go back to work. I'm happy and excited to be a part of an amazing community and the possibilities that are yet to come. I am excited to share all that I have learned and the wisdom that I have gained due to my years at home. Had I not had this experience, I'm not sure I would be the teacher I'm bringing into this new classroom. This is a tremendous gift that I was given, the chance to see my children grow and to see all that I learned manifest in their eyes, hands, and body. I will forever cherish my time at home and for no amount of time will I regret not having worked or furthered my career.
It is with joy that I now accept this new routine and a life that will now change our family to something new. I hope to find a way to balance the new workload with what I have already established for our family. Sadly, I'm giving up the garden- for now. I hope that once I'm established in the school and a routine, we will get back to gardening once again. Our saving grace is the CSA we joined years ago who have welcomed us back with open arms and much more!
I look forward to sharing the new and changing Montessori journey for our family. I suppose we are a unique bunch being a 3rd generation of Montessorians. At this point, I think it's in our blood. I look at pictures of Dr. Montessori like she were my own grandmother- family.
I am beyond thrilled and excited for our culture exchange program and hope to grow it and continue with it for my class. I hope you can join us at some point.
Here's to the future and a new (school) year!
Becoming a mother will change who you are, and you will never be the same. The meaning of Love is truly realized as it is a bond that no one can take away from you. I am, now, who I am because of the two girls in my life. To this, I am thankful to them.